The “Course in Miracles” says we either learn from joy or pain. Unfortunately, many of us chose the latter. And last Tuesday, I was no exception.
I pride myself on taking care of my health. So when I walked into the ER last week feeling unusually exhausted, I was in disbelief when the nurse told me I would have to be admitted to the hospital because my red blood cell count was so low I needed to have an immediate blood transfusion. Perhaps she was mistaken, I thought, still trying to wrap my brain around the words she slowly uttered from her mouth.
As it turns out, I had been losing massive amounts of blood caused by taking too many NSAIDS (aspirins) to manage my chronic migraines. As a result, I had bleeding on my stomach lining.
Fortunately, I was able to talk them out of giving me a blood transfusion, and instead opted for several iron transfusions to build my red blood cells back up.
Looking back, I had ignored all of the red flags of my condition (tiredness, nausea), and even blew off a doctor’s appointment with my primary care physician – telling myself I was "too busy.” The morning they admitted me to the hospital, I had two business appointments, one of which was on Skype. I checked my phone, which was rapidly losing power, and sent off a quick message that I was being admitted to the hospital and would be in touch once discharged. And just like that, I was disconnected from the world, from being online— from closing that business deal I had been negotiating for weeks.
I had to be still. And do NOTHING, which was something I had not done in a LONG time.
I was learning from pain.
During my stay I was pampered by a great nursing staff and caught up on a book I had been planning to read for weeks. Still, the full magnitude of the situation did not hit me until I was discharged and ran into a therapist buddy of mine who suggested my migraines may have been stress induced. “Stress-induced?” I repeated in disbelief.
Was I really stressed? How could I be stressed? I LOVE the work I do! It's my PASSION! I pondered her words as I continued my stroll through the neighborhood, and realized, yes, I was stressing over that contract. Which, by the way, worked out fine in the end. I now realize, things could have been a lot worse. And that my health is the primary priority. As a result, I allowed myself an extra few days to return to business, and this newsletter. And am happy to say, I have not had not one migraine since my release from the hospital!
I absolutely LOVE my career helping entrepreneurs, but this health crisis, forced me out of the comfort zone of working like a maniac. And for that I am grateful! So, my question for you is, have you ever experienced a pain (emotional or physical) to get you out of your comfort zone? If so, what did you do about it? Let me know in the comment section below.